Trust Issues

I'm too kind
Or maybe I'm just extremely selfish
I'm not sure.

Not sure if
I'm too considerate to bother others
With whats bothering me,
Or
I don't consider you worthy enough
to share with you the wonders of  my cranium.

Pertaining to this
I'm confused.
Maybe
Just maybe
Its a mixture of both.

I'm too kind to people,
And too selfish to myself.

I need to talk,
It's apart of our being
 - to talk
 - to converse
that's why we've got such melodious voices.
But I just always keep it to myself.
I don't know to share,
Who to share it with.

I'm slow to trust.
And even slower to trust one with my thoughts,
because these I guard with my heart.

And if,
IF,
I ever do trust you with these
I expect you to trust me just as equally,
Not less.

So bear with me,
As I teach myself
to open up,
to speak,
and ....maybe....just maybe not rely on beings like myself.